I want to make the most of and capitalise on the resolution I made last year and fulfilled and exceeded beyond what I would have thought possible... Improving my health.
I'm a diabetic and was going downhill fast but I started going to the Gym, much as I hate the rotten place, and on my last visit to the specialist a few weeks ago, the guy was slapping high fives with me. At first he thought it was these tablets he put me on that I only took for 6 weeks then gave away as a bad joke because they were stuffing me up bad.
When I told him I already told my GP she could shove them where the sun don't shine and respectfully, he could do the same, he got even more excited and asked me what the hell I did to turn myself around??
He read me a report he'd sent to my GP 10 months earlier and his outlook and predictions were pretty scary. But here I am, 1 /10th of a point off being perfect.... for a diabetic. After what I have been through with it all these years and the effort I put in at the house of Grunt and groan, I'm almost in tears being so happy it's worked out so well.
So..... Now that I can do so much more than I could before even though it's still not easy, I'm going to clean up the mess of crap I have at home that somehow got completely and utterly out of hand when I lost my mind at whatever point that was in the previous 6 years. I look at so much of the crap I have hoarded away and the way I have piled it up and stand there wondering what in the hell was I thinking and how the hell did I managed to physically get it all in the yard the way I was?? I have made made big progress on that just this last week and with a push, I should have the major part of the yard done tomorrow. From there it will be taking care of the minor but numerous issues.
Still lots to do in the sheds BUT, I'm making progress that's been a LONG time coming.
My scrapping ambitions will all be fulfilled when I get all the junk out of this place. in the last year I have receipts for over 5.5 tons I have off loaded. I reckon there is still about another 2-3 tons to go in mountains of small bits and pieces now.
I'm going to work hard on getting my business up and running again. I am a photographer and work in a couple of very specialized fields that I did very well at before I got too crook to get past the Chair after getting out of bed of a morning. I am starting to feel my mental faculties coming back to me like my memory and concentration and learning what to do to make up for the shortfalls I still have. I'm encouraged that I got this up and running against the odds when I started so now I know what to do, it should be easier.
I have promised my wife that we will sell up here where we have been for 20+ years on a main road and move somewhere quieter and with fresher air. I'm dreading the work and stress involved in that but its what she has wanted for some time and I owe it to her 100 times over for putting up with me as she has all this time and still does.
I'm going to try to be more calm, easy going and chilled. My temper has never been good but I do stress and worry too much particularly about what others do. I'm going to try and take a healthy dose Of " I don't give a ****" every day and try to think happy thoughts.
And of course, with all this I'll have to keep pushing myself every day out the door to the house of horrors and stick with that.
I think the fact that I have stuck with it a year already has surprised everyone that knows me but no one more than myself. Thats been the biggest achievement of all in the last year and I figure If I can do that, this years goals are going to be a relative piece of cake.
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