armygreywolf 
There aren't cash flow problems, there is expenditure problems. I am sick, my bills are absolutely insane, a single visit can cost as much as a 5th or 6th mortgage payment at a time. The reality of the situation is I am self employed, the government who contracted with the company who got me this sick in the first place passed a law to eliminate their culpability a long time ago, then the VA, who refuses to identify the chemical poisoning and all the effects that come from that as service connected has instead of treating me directly, handed me a referral and the slim possibility they will ever pay for anything that happens. There are people who can account for the scars and past surgeries I have had relating to this very problem. It has persisted. I have no financial recourse except to push as hard as I can towards the future.
That leaves me to deal with five figure recurring bills by myself on the hopes that one day they will reimburse me in some capacity. I have to pay these bills because as you can guess I still need to be treated so I can get better. We have completely maxed out my wife's insurance in the first 5 months of this debacle. I need approx. another 100-150k worth of treatments and procedures PROVIDED everything goes swimmingly.
The idea of hey, throw in the towel because your not making any cash would be tantamount to saying none of you will be completely repaid in any capacity ever. The fact is I've paid some accounts completely, others have gotten partials. I've personally had to pay the co-pay for the procedure and the recovery time. I paid out of pocket for the medications as well. I wanted to make another partial but simply cannot at this time for those exact reasons. The truth is, this is a trial, and I prefer to face hardship and have reasons to keep on going. A reason to fight, at least for me, is the source of my willpower.
I refuse to parade this around as a crutch. I will make it through the tunnel and out the other side and when that happens, all things shall be squared up and satisfied. Plan for that. Sit tight and watch me kick this things butt.
Oh and if I don't get to say it directly, Merry Christmas everybody.
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